it's killing me

I'm mad tired after weeks and weeks of work, 

so I want to relax.

especially in weekdays.

I'm honestly fine 

with slacking at your house (room) for the weekends, 

just hugging biscuit face and sniffing you.

 And then we will have all these long talks 

and nonsense exciting scenarios. 

(yes there's a script, too bad) 

I feel happy to be in your arms.

 I really do.

 And then when you kiss my forehead 

my life is complete. 

but that's for weekends.

 that's for days when nobody asked me out to play. 

when ppl eventually do. 

i wanna go out.

 I wanna meet them 

and I want you to meet them too.

I want to go to them and say

this is Harris!

so then they will go

"oh so this is the guy that yiqi has been ranting on"

"wa he so tall yiqi's pattern no change sia"

"what's up with his hairstyle???" 

(hey my friends are fashionstas, and no you are not)

but alas you don't like.

baby, you are like hermit crab

an introvert that stays at home everyday.

and are happy about it

you are the ideal husband

i'm dead serious.

committed to me

earns big money

filial to parents

love my siblings

stay at home = thrifty

if i'm 28 i will go down on one knee 

and ask for your hand

and skywrite 

"will you marry me?"

(since i'm using ur money already)
might as well
see what's the fuss
andddd...

instagram sure got alot of likes

but now, at age 23

i do not want to marry you

i do want to go out

not everyday mind you.

maybe once in 2 weeks times.

especially in the weekdays

and there's always conflict, you know

you hate going out

you hate spending money, especially mine (understandably)

so what am i supposed to do?

baby

will time fly?

so we wont stuck in this anguishing limbo.

i'm sorry

i dono how to curb my excitement

over all these

i'm a party girl

granted ive toned down quite a lot

but I'm still me

are you willing to accept that?

and you might be wondering

why such a long post?

all because i was scared to tell you

i wanna watch Hotel Transylvania later.

"I always try to make it up to you for whatever I can’t provide. I’ll try my best to do it always. Making a super conscious effort to remember your stuff; committing to memory your friends’ birthdays by repeating them in my head over and over, coming out to meet you whenever you request for me to even when I’m not free, going through your meal rituals in my head before food comes so that I can surprise you by actually ‘remembering’ them. All these just to see you smile. I want you to be happy with me. I want to repay you."

Do you know, reading this freaks me out, 

especially "I want to repay you"

why? why do you want to repay me?

I mean, i'm your gf. not your mum 

(sometimes i do feel like u love me like ur mum, but that's another issue to be dealt next time)

Don't leave me.

Let's be happy together till 2018 

where I ask you for your hand?

Cos Harris Lim, you are too gu niang already. 

I have to be the man. 

A guideline

Things you can joke about,
      (from the top of my head..)

1. time it took for me to take a driving license 
2. my driving skills, though I have no idea why, i'm a professional F1 driver.
3. the long hours I spent on work
4. my honors
5. mathematical science
6. bags and wallets
7. clumsiness
8. grammar errors and wrong pronounciation
9. failure at mental calculation
10. unable to decipher btn left and right, 24 hour clock, rows and columns.

The rest, you simply cannot joke about.

You know my love for you is too much.

you

i miss you

   so much
   

Musings

"I'd say go for the unassuming geek (or perhaps not so suave guy) who only has eyes for you, and give him a chance!" 
-Wise girl, aka Xiaxue

"Being in a couple is hard. Committing, making sacrifices.. it's hard
But if it's the right person, then it's easy"
-HIMYM 


So i took their advice
and landed you
the greatest gift

thank you.

all too well

Sitting on your bed following up all these tiresome emails

you have no idea how happy I am now. 

because I can stare at you

while you listen to your webcasts.

and best part, there's no one to judge me. 

I may not show it often,

probably because I've learnt to be wary

I know you know I'm terrified

but you not pressuring me

is what makes me confident of us

i can't wait for our parallel universe baby.

but for now, 

in the harsh year of 2012

lets work hard

lastly,

happy early 3rd month

harris lim

Couple Activities

Because we meet everyday.

as we live so fucking near 

our couple activities are 

quoting what other people would say

"you guys are too free"

here are our 5 couple activities in the past 2 months

1. compete on FB see who gets the most likes

well, no prizes for guessing who won that.

I didn't as you claimed, 'tried to garner support or asked my friends to like it.'

the whatsapp message you chanced upon was merely me asking Clara to like something else. completely unrelated. Not everything is about you hunny.

2. Playing iPhone games like Chasing Yello, Subway Surfers and Temple Run-Brave & VPet

Yea, we do lame awkward stuff like these. Please don't judge us. We are bored.
ps: My VPet is so strong. you weakling.

3. Saw it on 9Gag, people used emoicons to play Connect 4, and we decided to give a try

I WON, btw.

 4. Twitter & Instagram 

Social Media plays a huge part in our couple activity because, I'm dating an addict.

Have even signed up for Pinterest. #ohgodnohelpme #helpus 

 5. Playing Gifboom

apparently the app was the in-thing in May but as we were in US, we were brutally ripped from the chances of showcasing our talents.

i think we make a cute couple, Harris Lim.
and to the rest of the people out there, please please don't judge us.

I swear, once I get a job, we will be doing adult things like going for drinks, watching musicals, nodding intelligently at world affairs, playing tennis and ...

oh who am I kidding, I think these activities are here to stay. #childatheart

You And I

I happened to chance this song

and I think you probably heard this before

considering this is quite a hipster song

but here it is.

when I heard this

I see you

and me

and most importantly us

loving the bunny reference too.

i'm honestly looking forward to us.

"Don’t you worry there my honey
We might not have any money
But we’ve got our love to pay the bills"

Autobiography

This girl.

Many people know her as Stephanie, and only a selected few are able to endearingly refer to her as Yi Qi. 

She easily passes off as a 21-year old, and sometimes even as a teenager. Her cheerfulness brightens up her surroundings easily, and her infectious playfulness hits everyone around her with a force much reckoned with. Her wide smile brings wider smiles to others’ faces, including mine.

Though petite, her boundless energy never seems to die down, and her playful fights are equivalent to that of a hamster; miniature and all. She gets all grumpy when cooped up at home doing boring stuff, but a simple kiss to her forehead is enough to get her to simmer down (for the time being).

Her klutziness at times can be adorable, while other times worrying. Her technologic illiteracy is on the other hand, always adorable, and the furrowing of her eyebrows are always a sight to watch. Immediate attention is required to her, otherwise her irritation will grow to become frustration and eventually anger, and that’s when it is no fun any more.

However, that being said, one kiss and one pat on her head is enough for her to drop all her negative feelings and thoughts, and melting down to this cute girl whom I have grown to love so much.

I love her and will do whatever it takes just to see a smile on her face. I pretend to lose so that she can win. I go along with all her silly games, though I draw the line at her nonsensical theories.

To the world, I’m Harris Lim. But to her, I’m her boy toy friend, who loves her a tad too much.

So, 

the boy wrote this autobiography ages ago, but because it's so sweet,

I need to present his love for me to everyone. #overtshowoff

If not, this blog seems like my one-sided love/passion and some may even say stalking him. Basically all my posts are about him. oh no.

I've got it bad.

I admit. 

Anw, this autobiography of mine is really cute. I love the highlighted sentence especially.

Harris Lim,

Me love you back too.

P.S: I hope you are studying! And not be addicted to all sorts of social media.

P.P.S: I miss you back. #inseparable #ohno

Respect

respect |riˈspekt|noun1 a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements: the director had a lot of respect for Douglas as an actor.• the state of being admired in such a way:his first chance in over fifteen years to regain respect in the business.• due regard for the feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions of others: respect for human rights.• (respects) a person's polite greetings:give my respects to your parents.
2 a particular aspect, point, or detail: the government's record in this respect is a mixed one.verb [ with obj. ]admire (someone or something) deeply, as a result of their abilities, qualities, or achievements: she was respected by everyone she worked with | (as adj.respected) : a respected academic.    • have due regard for the feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions of: I respected his views.• avoid harming or interfering with: it is incumbent upon all boaters to respect the environment.• agree to recognize and abide by (a legal requirement): he urged all foreign nationals to respect the laws of their country of residence.ORIGIN late Middle English: from Latinrespectus, from the verb respicere ‘look back at, regard,’ from re- ‘back’ + specere ‘look at.’
Hi,
As you can see, I have kindly took down the meaning of respect from none other than Oxford Dictionary and pasted it here so that references can be made easily. It has come to my attention from yesterday text message, that you wanted me to respect your time. I must confess that upon receiving that, I was surprised. In all my 23 years of basically non-existent living, I have never been accused of not respecting or not giving due regards for one's feelings. (Taken via Oxford Dictionary) 
Yes, I do admit i have been mean to others, but they are normally my loved ones and they understand that deep down I was only teasing. Hence, if I had previously implied that I was not respecting your time, please do know that I was only joking, or in cool kids term, "Just Kidding!" Perhaps, your sense of humor and mine is of different frequency and I can only blame myself for that.
However, if you had taken it the wrong way, please do accept my humble apologies and be comforted to know that I would never ever disrespect your time. You are a busy man, with weekdays and even weekends filled with all sorts of activities. I am sorry to have taken so much of your time and I will work on it.
With that in mind, please continue to love me like before and once again I am sorry for everything and am grateful for your magnanimous personality.
I love you.
Yours forever,Yi Qi

Sometimes

i dont even know what i want

from you

and from us.

im equally confused too
just so you know

and i hate this feeling

train of thoughts

So I'm in NUS

writing my essays

while Harris is off for project meeting

I just smsed him I have lost my Internet connection

and his reply was

"eh ttyl k!"

Ouch much?

lucky by a stroke of inspiration

and my much-advanced skills in technology

I've tapped on to my hotspot

so now I can blog.

I'm terribly stoked about my shows

and I have dl-ed it all
2BG, HIMYM, MF, TBBT
I have missed you so.

dying to watch it now actually.

and speaking of Internet and downloads,

finally after so damn long

I've managed to upgrade to fibre broadband

praise the heavens and lords and whatnots

for fast internet speed

NUS Starbucks is pretty awesome actually

there's powerpoint everywhere

*cues in rainbow face*

so now armed with my caramel frappe

and my Macbook Air plus my iPhone

I CAN TAKE ON THE WORLD

#hipster

being here reminds me of my days of mugging at good old SAC

where the lovely 3 spent at least an hour swatting off houseflies

and then buying cheap coffee at vending machines

using the white board and trying to make sense

 of nonsense linear algebra

which i still cannot solve to save my life

those 4 years of my life were a torture

but honestly the friends i've gained make it worthwhile

 i might go back there again

so i can be friends with them

though might is the keyword here
and the chances are terribly slim.

i'm sorry
mathematical science is my arch-enemy.

it's not my fault.
it's who I am.

stuck in a science course

where only nerds and geeks come out to play
(i'm sorry, it's true, don't judge me, judge them instead)

how can i even have the same freq with them?

thankfully, i found a bunch

who understands my mean jokes

my evil intentions

my cynicism

and for that, my loyalty with you will always stand.

you guys know who you are

let's not get mushy by naming you all

or awkward if I've, erm left you out.

as ever, I believe in fate
more so than ever now

going to WAT was probably the best choice

I've made in my university life

I've travelled to the States

and visited the Wizarding World of Harry Potter

#favoriteplaceintheworldnow

it's worth it, to embark on this great adventure alone

because, only then, I will go all out

and what do you know,

I've made amazing friends
and even found someone

who make me realize

how goddamn lucky I am

because now,

I am yours 

and yours only

for the many many years to come.

Okay too mushy

that's a whole hell of 'train of thoughts'

but I needed to rant them out

and I'm getting worried with my job search

i'm hoping like mad

that Unilever accepts my essays

and perhaps I can get in the much-hyped UFLP

#fingerscrossed

I dont think I want to go back to AI

the company is too small

too constricted and frankly the turnover rate is alarming.

however, if all else fails

I hope AI will accept me

and that is/are my thoughts for now

and where is Harris Lim?

oh right, he doesn't want to talk to me

fine. 

you are so gonna suffer my wrath later.

one month.

loads of talking

smelling

and smiling 

and falling asleep beside each other

that pretty sums up my 1st month

many more to come

Harris Lim

Loving the video

but seriously spoiling market.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ADyFCCrZEU&feature=player_embedded

and here's how we started, it is too cute for nuts

must share

#covertshowoff

Okay link cannot work

it consists of a recording of us posing for camera

and the photos came out like this

so chio

i love you

hunny

and i'm seriously embracing you calling me bunny

#whatiswrongwithme

#loveismakingmesoft

Disney

A Whole New World

I can show you the world.
Shining, shimmering, splendid.
Tell me, Princess, now when did you last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes.
Take you wonder by wonder.
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming.

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear.
That now I'm in a whole new world with you.
Now I'm in a whole new world with you.

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feelings
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes)
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath, it gets better)

I'm  like a shooting star
I've come so far.
I cant go back to where I used to be.

(A whole new world)
Every turn a surprise.
(With new horizons to pursue)
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you.

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A trillion chase
A wondrous place
For you and me.

ごめんなさい
私は愛してる

The Perfect Fit?

The Perfect Fit?

My angst versus your optimism
My competitiveness versus your chillax slacking attitude
My lack of compassion versus your high tolerance for everyone
My use of vulgar language versus your prim and proper, standard language


wait, I am churning out some horrible persona of mine.

lets do this again.

My sweet innocent smiles versus your ugly wicked frowns
My petite figure versus your gangly tall large-framed structure
My many friends versus your foreveralone image
My liking for giraffes versus your disturbing and creepy love for llama


And that's so much better
So, in a nutshell

I'm too awesome.

Count your blessings. Harris Lim.

愛してる

I love you

for all that you are

all that you have been

and all that you are yet to be.

Autobiography, in a third person narrative

Many people might know him as Harris Lim

the tall guy who studied at NUS,

forever late for lectures and tutorials.

he might seem as an introvert shy awkward guy

but once you get him talking,

the real problem is asking him to shut up

and believe me, I know best

Tall, dark and completed with bad boyish look,

my type of guy exactly

but underneath it all,

he is not the image he portrayed.

  

Yes, he has his bad boy moments

from lighting up cigarettes to clubbing and trying to get drunk.

(though apparently he has now quit smoking)

but underneath it all, he’s a stay home guy

satisfied with his weekends burn simply

watching soccer and mugging hard.

he is fascinated with the newest tech gadgets

and is what everyone considers now

a social media addict.

photography is his love

from owning his DSLR

to learning photoshop and lightroom

and trying not to judge, a Holga camera.

his OCD ensures his photos are all nicely edited

his folders are all in place

and his music needs to be classified under playlists

and completed with albums name, artwork and lyrics

however, that being said,

one look from me is enough

to make him drop whatever he is doing

rushed to my side.

and placed his full attention all onto me.

because,

he loves me and will do whatever it takes

just to see a smile on my face.

he pretends to lose

so that I can win.

he goes along with all my silly games

though he draws the line at

my nonsense theories

(which could totally be true, think out of the box!)

to the world

he’s Harris Lim

but to me

he’s my boytoy

the guy I love a tad too much.

Life's been more than fair.

Life's been more than fair lately.

Even though I am working almost everyday

and feeling stressed/pressured by the upcoming Sakeinn website

there's still a fucking ray of sunshine in my life

and it comes as form of a guy

standing at 1.8m

with the worst fashion taste ever

but a smile always for me

no matter where I am

(though granted, I'm only at Sakeinn)

he will come by with food

testing his luck with his choices

knowing full well that I will hate it

seeing him,

knowing how far we have gone to reach here now

my heart explodes with happiness everyday

knowing he's here to stay

that guy

that lifeguard

that friend

is now my boyfriend

love is intangible

and happiness is subjective

but right now

I know

this is love.

this is happiness

It's impossible to list the things I love about you

but here goes

I love that you intertwined your fingers with mine the instant we met

I love how you gave me the face when I let go of your hand

I love how you then grabbed it tightly

I love how you say 'No' to my shoos and go-aways

I love how you will stroke my head

I love how you smell my hair

I love how you call me Hun

I love how you go aiyo over the simplest things

I love how you bring in your mum and sis in our conversations

I love how you dismiss me when I bring in insignificant others in our relationship

I love how you smile at me the instant you saw me

I love how you bugged me in reciprocating my love back

I love how when I do, your face lights up

I love how you concede defeat so that I can win

I love how you treat me like a Queen

I love how you love my friends

I love how you change your url the instant you became this happy

so much for thinking it's impossible to list.

you consume all my thoughts,

and I thank my lucky stars everyday

 to be able to meet you.

know you

like you

and finally fall madly in love with you.

Harris Lim

I love you.

random musings

It's been a month since I’m back. Time flies.

Have not had a proper rest since I came back actually

I mean, I went to Sakeinn the day after I landed. 

I swear, the next morning, bright and early, 

I’m back at here.

the only bright side,

I managed to steal the mayorship of Sakeinn at foursquare

from some nonsense si gina girl. 

take that si gina!

Just pathetic, I know.

in my defense, I need these small things to keep me going

So, it's been a month and I have basically done nothing. wtf

I'm either working or meeting my friends

3 months of disappearing in thin air

people will definitely miss you.

and of cause, my convocation

went back early so that I could wear the hat

hair so chio, tan so pretty, not fat at all

(refer back to 2008 yiqi, I fucking did it) 

with zhicheng

that guy saved my life in the last 3 years of university

it's even a standing joke btn the gang

"zc is the best thing that ever happened to you, steph" 

they would say that to me

while,

"Steph is the worst thing that ever happened to you, zc"

that would be directed to zc

super omgly touched by those two that came all the way to NTU just to see me grad

we have gone a long way

since a such a tender age of 16 years.

and hey presto,

I've graduated.

with the uni clique

dom and ye just super 有心

to take off to come see the four of us grad

it takes effort mind you

anyhow, this picture only missing Ray,

if not the gang is completed.

mandatory grad shot.

fml why did i looked up,

my face is now hidden

so to prevent readers/reader from missing my face

here's a chio photo of me with the Winnie decked in grad gown too

anyhow
other than convocation and meetups with the peeps
I am also mj-ing.

mahjong takes up much time too

It's my favorite hobby so understandably, I'm game to mj anytime, anywhere

reminiscing the days where I sneaked out at night

take mj table from Jerome's house

so as to mj at Sy house.

our window from 1am-5am.

simply bcos Justin can only come out after 1am and I need to be back home at 5am

wtf why we so hardcore.

anyhow, birthday celebrations for this year, so.much.better

though sucks to be 23.

and it doesn't help that Harris is only 22. fml

cannot wait for May 25th. 

Celebrated with uni gang at the much coveted hotel-MBS.

quite awesome actually

even though I've been here quite a few many times

the excitement of infinity pool still gets my heart beating

the night light of Singapore is still breath-o-taking

here are some pictures

so irritated with them, 

they placed 2 large and 5 candles and now im 25. fml*1000

and still add on the sign gestures

lucky my hair so chio here

I think it compensates 

still keeping up with the '25' sign,

and omfg about the Singapore skyline

how breathtaking can Singapore be

anyway the funniest story happened there.

was soaking in the Jacuzzi with sj and cheryl

this security guard came by and asked us to leave

reason being

"jacuzzi only for aged 16 and above"

so people who think I look old now

I can still pass off as a 16 year old girl. LOL

loving this candid shot of us.

cannot remember what we were talking

but I guessed I was mildly distracted

checking my hair and whatsapping Harris.

in my defense, I was too excited as he was coming home the next day

LDGA no joke.

anyhow

the best part of growing old,

is knowing they are here

and wont leave you.

(:

soooo after MBS,

comes 11th August

that boy finally finished his traveling

left MBS early and took the shuttle bus to Changi Airport

and finalfuckingly he walked out from the gate

quoting from him, 

"the air we were both meant to share"

wtf

Just not impressed, not touched, not feeling anything

I'm not that kind of girl hun. 

Cabbed back to his house

waited for him to bath

and what do you know

his mum came back and

I met his mum

omgomgomgomgomg

Just not even together

first day back, I've already seen my boyfriend's  friend's mum

anyhow still proud of myself

that I managed to leave a good impression

and got praised for being pretty. Yay!

#simplejoys

anyway, had our first SG date

AngKeong Hokkien Mee.

side note, why would people wanna dismiss, 

that was/is Heaven on a plate.

went back home

and cut birthday cake with my dad

was lazy to whatspp from Mei's phone so just took a snapshot with the phone

regretting it now

but anyway,

celebrated daddy's and my birthday at Jumbo Seafood

then celebration no3

with the nzire peeps and Justin at Soul

brought asked Harris along

reason being, we need a photographer.

and someone to share costs.

but joke's on me now. LOL

dont mind the wreath. 

those nonsense guys decided to make me a siam bu. FML

but before that, I was checked, had to produce driving license

(seriously, I still get a kick whenever I get the chance to show my license) 

apparently I look younger than 18 years old. 

made my night actually

anyway, these are the photos

I look absolutely stunning albeit the wreath. tyvm.

 

with Nigel

we looked so happy

yay 

with sy

he looked half drunk already

just wtf

was supposed to be my day, he just steal limelight

no comments

yay derrick!

its a trend to go clubs on my birthday. LOL

yay nick!

just so slim now.

wtf

and the gang

photo taken by Harris

see so blurred

referred to above

joke's on me

I know, I am too short

I get it everyday when I need to talk to everyone other than my family members

didn't got drunk, take that Nigel

I'm no longer the fucked up girl who got drunk at MBS hotel last Xmas.

left Soul around 3plus

and cabbed back home with Harris

seriously, the perks of living so fucking near.

we can share cabs

we can meet for brunch/dinner/supper

though the cons are, 

you cannot cheat, I mean, it will be awkward

if you happened to be holding hands with someone else

and he happens to be at downstairs. LOL

and and and on the 12th night

ate a simple bdae cake bread

so touched can.

why am i so easily pleased

but yay thanks for the minion and bread and candles and chocolates

you know I love you

despite what my actions say otherwise. my words meant it

HAHAHAHA

on the 13th, 

yay Harris got no school

went over again because no one was at home

I became smart okay

soon went over to Sakeinn,

yes, I go to Sakeinn even on my birthday

it's a norm

at least I do not need to work this year

last year, I was working mind you.

collected the cake.

aiyo so sweet.

#forever21

with @yiimin

best sister ever

and with Harris

just dono how to smile

spoiling this otherwise perfect photo

anyway we went back to his house to place the leftover cake

and yea, managed to see the mum and dad

so much for avoiding

but it was really hot and I wanted to stay in the house 

soon the sun wasn't that scorching and we went off
so excited
birthday celebration at Timbre
sadly the company could do better
'why am I stuck with him'
I fervently asked myself.

ordered duck pizza and buffalo wings
omg just Heaven on a plate once more
awesome awesome dinner
wtf thinking about it now makes me hungry

was supposed to watch Brave
but somehow we got to talking
and we became so emo after that. LOL
to be honest,
I kinda forgotten the conclusion of the talk

but I guess,
the overall message is
"We will last"?


anyhow it was a really nice celebration
so so so so so much better than last year


oh wait, nzire celebrated with me another time
nigel, shawn and sy baked me a tiramisu cake
just omg wtf why they so zai


in all,
this year birthday celebrations
so god damn better
much loved. <3>