OHAI GRADUATION

Yes, after 7 struggling semesters, I have completed my core, and before i touched on anything, here is a letter i wrote for myself in 2008, just before i started my torturous journey of a Mathematician student.

dear, future 2012 yiqii

how have you been?? Is uni life good for you? you are close to graduating already! ((:

at least i hope so. u have made it to this far right? 

u nv drop out halfway and banish everyone's expectatations of you right?

j
and jus to check, u are nt addicted to smokin or drugs ya? 

if you have, kill urself now. 

no pt readin anymore.

graduating cermony is approachin right? 
i hope you have found de perfect hairdo. shoes. clothes and all. 

if you haven, blame shujuan!!! 

u wanted to plan it 4 yrs ago, she said u are crazy, see wat happen now??? 

told u, that 4yrs passed by a blink la.

speakin of frens, wonder how ur close frens are doin la.

ky has graduated from psychology. 

faa from business and nitx is probably in de 3rd yr of uni!

jf is graduatin wif you. direct honors.

juan.beng are probably in uni le.maybe they are in de same school as you!! 

haha. i have no idea. huili is intendin to pursue a degree right?

celest is also studying?

 so many ppl are studyin la. haha. 

and i'm graduating. ((:

n-zire guys have all finished ns. 

wow. time REALLI flies.

and oo! i forgot to ask u, do u know ur way ard ntu already?

 i doubt so.

 and have you gt a drivin license liao??

 i seriousli hope u do. u are like 23yrs old le.

how's piano goin? smooth? 

and japanese language. u know more that simple phrases le?

well the letter's gettin draggy so i shall end here.

 realli hope u like uni life and create unforgettable memories. ((: [oh my that's so cliche]

ps: are u attached now?

pps: is the guy cute?

ppps: he better be both cute and rich!! ur dream is to becum a tai tai.

signing off,present 2008 yiqii

WOW.

I have only this emotion. I am smiling at and to myself. (if you can comphrend)

4 years have passed. or rather 3.5 years.

My usage of language is funny and anw, I'm here to answer you,



Dear past 2008 yiqii

I have graduated from NTU. Nope, I didn't banish everyone hopes and mugged on. 

The journey was tough like mad. 

I have broken down countless of times, cos i don't freaking understand.

 in fact, i can safely say, i still have no idea. 

And nope, i am not addicted to smoking or drugs, still obeys the law.

Just keep swearing more everyday. but thats okay right? 

2008 yiqii will approve. 

Its circumstances that made who i am today.

Its actually very bittersweet reading this letter as I am not as close to some of the friends now in 2011.

I am, to still a few, but i have made new friends, so it all evens out.

And yea, all of my friends went to study, but none came here

but its still okay,

cos i made other amazing people and they walked with me. <3

Yes, graduation ceremony is approaching but I'm going to the States first so it will be very rush

i doubt i will have time to prepare my hairdo and clothes

and i have a secret fear I'm going to be very fat

3 months = no joke

AND HAHAHAHA, I PASSED MY DRIVING

THANKYOUVERYMUCH

I do know my way around NTU, but if i deviate from the norm, i'm lost like a sheep.

piano& jap is all good. (:

and no, i'm not attached, i got out from a fucked-up r/s this year 

and i can safely say, after this heartbreak, and yet am still not broken,

I CAN CONQUER THE WORLD. 

All in all, these past 3.5 years have its ups and downs. 

Though the 'downs' outweighs the 'ups' by so much,

I'm thankful i made it through.
  

With loves,

                  2011 yiqii 

You have your mother's eyes

The ones that never left me.

Saturday Dinner.

3 words, 

WON LIKE MAD

Clearing My Head

All my feelings, it is hard to even jot it down in words.

I promise myself that I will walk away, 

I will live well, I will find back my joy. And in these few months, I did it. 

I’m the Yiqi again, though admittedly, a little more cynical, a little more angst, and a lot less demure. 

But nevertheless, I am back.

What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.

 I am a firm believer of this cliché phrase.

  And I think after this incident, I can face a WWE wrestler now.

 Emotionally of course.

The feelings that I have to curb and the emotions that used to flow.
The smiles and “I’m fine”.

Every single day was torturous.

 I thought, to myself, repeatedly, it is just a dream.

 And I would wake up, next morning, knowing otherwise. 

I desperately wanted an exit and finally it came. 

I fell out of love. 

Your actions, your words, they disgust me. 

They woke me up.

 You were no longer the guy I love.

 You have morphed away, replaced by someone so foul, so evil and so not worthy of my love.

Once you had fallen out of love and seen the ugly side of everything,

 The thing that taunts you, weakens you and stops you, are the good memories. 

The memories that had been so ingrained in my mind were continuously attacking me. 

Yes, the usage of the word, attack, seems so ridiculous now.

 But at that time, it was how it was. 

Everything triggered me to you, the old you, 

And my happiness dissolved so rapidly before anyone can say, “Stop thinking”.

 I distinctly remembered that I used videos, alcohol, shopping, anything

just to let me sleep peacefully, devoid of nightmares. 

And most importantly, from dreaming my ideal scene 

The old YOU realizing your mistake and coming back for me. 

The feeling, when one wakes up,

 realizes that the dream was merely an obsessed yearning was tormenting.

 In fact, the only advantage of ending a relationship was losing the extra pounds.

Then came the inevitable, the bitching, to downplay each other faults. 

The competition, to see whether one is better off than the other, 

and lastly, wanting mutual friends to be at your side. 

That was ugly and thankfully it has past too.  

Or rather, you were losing and had to put a stop to it. 

A word of advice, next time, 

if you want to bitch about someone, make sure you have the facts and brains to back up.

 Perhaps, it is my fault too, to satisfy your ego,

 I often dumb myself to let you have the upper hand. 
Reason being, I loved you.

And finally, after so long, we have to meet. 

Me.

 You.

 And of course her.

 What better way to end the evening, going to the place where you two met? 

The irony of this situation is really laughable.

To end off this depressing note, a question I often asked myself. 

Did the person I love actually did exist? 

Was everything just a facade? 

Halloween 2011

Halloween is an easy concept,

"A normal girl becomes a slut, a slutty girl becomes an even sluttier girl."

Jenna Marbles

This year, i did things a little differently. With no restrictions like last year, Stochastic Mid Term, thanks Prof Nicholas. i went to Universal Studios, saw the brochure a couple of weeks ago and asked the whole gang to make a date free to go.

it was f-ing awesome.
their makeup was amazing, and the ghosts, seriously, 4 hours of non-stop scaring people and forced to take photographs with thousands of people = very shag.

see, he became so shagged, he's bleeding. 

i know, my lightstick acting as headband looks too gorgeous. and my burberry bag, thankyouverymuch

 ahh, the mummy, poor him. IT WAS SWELTERING HOT. and yet he was covered up with so much cloths and masks. poor him. fhl. though it indeed make an awesome photo

Don't be fooled by Sijie's smile. it was forced, check out her arm still clutching tightly to mine. LOL. in fact, i think i can safety say i looked the happiest there. HAHA.

ah, found a ghost that was very very very slacked. sat on a chair and took photos with a lot of people. #likeaboss

ugly doll much?

I HATE STANDING BESIDE SIJIE, SHE IS SO BLOODY THIN, SHE'S MAKING ME LOOK HUMONGOUS-LY FAT. 

#notetoself, stand as far as possible from her next time. 

#likeaboss #winning #awesome

The Final Cut. It was the exact same guy as the brochure! 

check out cheryl, she was too busy seeing the 'ghost' to look in the picture. LOL.

and ending off, the halloween post, 

With love, from Universal Studios Singapore.

Life has been awful. Sampling is a gone case, I KNOW NUTS ABT IT. i think i have a better chance at driving then taking this exam. and that is saying a lot. 

report is dying, me and Sijie playing with photo booth.

And, signing off, our bullfrog picture.

All i can say is, thank god I'm not born like that. 

or become like this, 

i think i am the only girl who posts fat and ugly pictures of herself.  fml.

okay, this gotta change, ending off with (many) totally gorgeous photos of myself.

 

 

Okay, i know.

NEED TO STOP BEING SO SELF-OBSESSED.

Proud Modern Family Addict

The scene that made me fell in love with you, Cameron Tucker.

and who can forget that Gloria Delgado voice, when she screams for her Jayyyyyyyy

oh, Sofia Vergara is hilarious, saw her on Ellen show, she rocked on the set.

and lastly, my Modern Homer Simpsons, Phil Dunphy

Modern Family might not be able to compete with Friends, but they are one of the best watched sitcom in these few years. Friends are legend, Rachel.Monica.Phoebe.Ross.Chandler.Joey, they are classic. so Modern Family, has a long way to go.


and, randomly,
Current book, Steve Jobs by Walter Issacson, a biography of how he became the man who changed the world.

and lastly, signing off with this, 

if you are not laughing at jesse tyler, you need to get yourself checked. #nohumorinlife

You are the only exception.

yes, i know, the bitching ought to stop, especially when asshole's friends can see it and know I'm talking about him

okay, fine I'm stopping, I'm not worthless, unlike, asshole and crappy. #needtostopbitching

for people that doesn't have twitter, (omg, you need to get a life! Do sign up for twitter and follow me, I'm awesome.)

the hilarity of the tweets, sometimes, i amaze myself.

and dear nikki replied back with this, and i countered back, and that adds up an enjoyable morning.

I mean i try to stop but your situation makes me laugh and wonder "are you really so thick into believing the whole of nzire believes your crap?"

Your whole act of losing yourself and needing to find it in crappy's pants, and next you cum are found was

Not.Very.Convincing

"i would really battle with you on wits, but I'm guessing you are low on ammunition."

-@funnyoneliners-

and god no, title is not about him, read on. 

life has been pretty great, I've turned 22, yes no longer F21. Celebrated with a bunch of awesome people, laughing a little more, crying a little less, and getting to believe the world is beautiful again. <3

updates on next year,

I'm all set for the States next summer, got myself into Work & Travel Program, last chance to do anything stupid like,

though, i would probably choose Neil Patrick Harris's star. #stillindenialthatheisgay

yes, that's the empire state building. wtf. nope i am not going to try to even climb that. i am not King Kong.

and oh, flash mob in Times Square, if i really managed to be a part of it, or glimpse it, thats one thing off my bucket list.

and perhaps try my luck at moving the Golden Gate bridge like Magneto.

and THIS, people, will be the highlight of the whole trip,

get a wand and a broomstick at Ollivanders' at Universal Studios Orlando: Wizarding World of Harry Potter. Splurge like mad on Butterbeer, Chocolate Frogs and Bertie's Beans, and explore Hogwarts and Hogsmead.  #teampotter

Saw from a tumblr, i teared abit. wtf.

WHY DO THOSE PEOPLE AT TUMBLR ALWAYS MAKE SUCH PHOTOS? 

Such power in these 7photos collaged together.

well, back to topic, I'm gonna be traveling to New Jersey, New York, Washington, Boston, Orlando, Florida, Las Vegas and Los Angeles. 8/50, i call that a win.

and and and, I'm going to Japan in December! this will be the first family trip in like, ever. 

Air tickets booked, hotels arranged and park tickets for Tokyo Disneyland is settled. so we are definitely going, #crossfingersandprays

 Mickey and Minnie, i will be seeing you in few months now. Remember to pose for me and no, i do not want the mandatory pose, i want something cool and awesome.

okay, that was good.  now back to online lecture..  

this is my current song worm now, and no, sadly i haven found anyone who "you by the light, is the greatest thing i can find" #dontrubitinalready

ttfn, follow me on twitter, i know i sound desperate. believe me, i am not.

much loves, xoxo @yiqii

つまらない

IM BORED. PERIOD.

hence i am,

 

 


24/7 in work. or rather 8/5.

but given the amount of lowly or even meagre pay im getting,

i dont feel APOLOGETIC at all. LOL.

tweeting captures my emotions in 140characters. the subtle hint of hurt.sad.betrayals.happy.excited.frustration. thats it if my followers can notice. 78 of them and counting. tyvm.

i think know i am obessed with the followers and following race and i admit, it aint healthy. Honestly i dono why its so important to me to have more followers than following. I guess it makes me feel good, to satisfy my superificial mind/heart of mine. #imaloser. nuff.said

and how ironic when after typing all the above, my superior gave me new work.
been busy till now.


lunch. <3
i bought cup noodle. cant go wrong with it.

side note: my obsession towards Harry Potter is alarmingly. I follow like 3 related HP twitter accounts. And i just did a HP fan quiz.

yes me have no life. im aware of it. i spend my life watching shows too. im up-to-date with all these shows. i wait for them, with 'ABATED BREATH' to be aired on funshion.

and my all time favourite,

MATT BOMER Y U NO LIKE WOMEN?

cant believe this hottie above is gay, has a house husband and 3 adopted kids. wtf is wrong with this world?

check him out

UM Y OH Y U NO LIKE WOMEN?
#pleasemakeanexceptionforme



ps: need a dinner date tonight. but somehow i dont feel like asking nzire. maybe i should leave the group. it hurts me even more to be stuck at there, hearing that asshole's name carelessly thrown and not forgetting cappy's name too.

i dont even go on facebook anymore. our mutual friends are ridiculouly increasing. the only similarity is we both have the same taste in men.

But you fell in love with the guy i fell out of love with. so maybe not.

You love that asshole cheating liar jerk who leeches on people's happiness and so full of ego till he cant stands his gf's education level. Hey if he can cheat on me for you, (insert all ur flaws), he can cheat on you for another girl who would stay over at his hse overnight for drinks when he already has a gf.

hmm, i think cant find already. which girl would want to be the third party, even if the relationship was as rocky as mad? so may you two be happy or should i say cappy, forever.

pps: awkward moment when you are searching for 'clara lim', you found cappy on top of the list.
um me no want to be friends with a lowly creature. facebook friend suggest super fail.


see im rambling. byes.
CUP NOODLE TIMEEEEEEEE