This is Madness

2 weeks till I leave sunny Singapore for sunny New York.

Till now, I cannot believe I have the guts to travel out.

OK

i have no idea how to continue

bye

The Secret

So, according to The Secret

the Laws of Attraction will only work
if you believe in the Laws of Attraction.


and the most important thing of all
is to keep writing stuffs and believing in it


so here goes my list.


i will find a job
i will get slimmer
i will be happily in love
i will be as awesome as i can get

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I'm a true-blue TV junkie.

And with my slacker life, I watched them as soon as they aired.

Last time, it was on MegaVideo but due to the @$%^# FBI who took it down,

I now torrent my shows. LOL.

once they are available on Isohunt

F.R.I.E.N.D.S is the best sitcom that I've watched so far.

"Everything I know in Life, I learnt from Friends"

http://friendsislife.wordpress.com/2009/12/13/everything-i-know-in-my-life-i-learned-from-friends-poster-quotes/

It's my sanctuary , it's like Harry Potter to me.

I love Rachel Green as much as I love my Winnie the Pooh.

And that's saying a lot.

And there they are,

my 6 favorite fictional characters of all time.

I'll be there for you

(when the rain starts to pour)

I'll be there for you

(like I've been there before)

I'll be there for you

(cause you're there for me too)

- the rembrandts-

Im finally back to blogging because, 

MY VIDEOS ARE TAKING FOREVER TO LOADDDDDDDDD

WHY ARE THEY DOING THIS TO ME??

Anyway, since I have some time, heres a blog post from me

its overdue but still,

I promised myself that i would blogged about 2011.

I even done a small paragraph that goes like this,

"2011 was certainly a year of ups and downs. And to top it off, i had fallen down on the last day of 2011"

AND yes, to answer you guys, i did fell down. #wtf #fml #mylifesucks

But seeing now its March 2012,

(yes, time flies when you sleep at 5am and wake up at 1pm

don't ask me how, it is just happening)

so to sum it up,

2 words to 2011

FUCK OFF!!!!!

or if you want a much civilized one,

GOOD RIDDANCE!

Looking back, I honestly have no f-ing idea how I survived.

I certainly became a lot more angst but I honestly think it's so much better you know?

I really love my current life

(whats not to love, i sleep till 1pm okay)

yes, i don't deny, it still fucking hurts at times

especially when I see the FB posts.

and not forgetting I am forced to see them. in flesh. #wtf #FMLoncemore

for the record, I'm never going to outings that have him or her or them

NO AMOUNT OF BEGGING WILL EVER MAKE ME HAVE DINNER WITH THEM INVITED

NOT EVEN 1 MILLION

NOT EVEN IF NEIL PATRICK HARRIS IS GONNA BE THERE

NOT EVEN IF NPH SUDDENLY ANNOUNCES HE'S NOT GAY AND WANTS TO BRING ME HOME AND GIVES ME 1 MILLION AND A DIAMOND RING. 

LOLOLOLOL

I believe you all get the point.

And besides, NPH is so gay and so in love with David Burtka, I cannot break them apart.

you see, crappy, I have morals.

wait do you know what morals are?

okay fine, I'm sorry. I'm never doing that anymore.

double chins it is.

and for that asshole, hope you go impotent and bald and have a paunchy stomach and homeless with no family and friends, walk out buy drugs to support your cocaine addition and got bang by a car that renders you not dead but surviving only on life support.

and who knows, when doctors gives you medical check-up, you are in Cancer 3rd Stage.

oh you poor thing... NOT.

LOLOLOLOLOL. 

definitely going to Hell for all this.

but it's okay because,

eug&zc&nitx are my cell mates. <3

Enough about 2011,

Im done saying and it has honestly been a year, 

Nitx tells me everyday that I need to find a guy, but it's so scary.

To go out and put yourself there.

ARE U FUCKING CRAZY?

screams my brain.

because the deal is this,

The more you love, the more you hate.

Jobs

I'm really worried.

Ive applied to quite a number of jobs already and yet none has responded to me. WTF..


whyyyyyy

OHAI GRADUATION

Yes, after 7 struggling semesters, I have completed my core, and before i touched on anything, here is a letter i wrote for myself in 2008, just before i started my torturous journey of a Mathematician student.

dear, future 2012 yiqii

how have you been?? Is uni life good for you? you are close to graduating already! ((:

at least i hope so. u have made it to this far right? 

u nv drop out halfway and banish everyone's expectatations of you right?

j
and jus to check, u are nt addicted to smokin or drugs ya? 

if you have, kill urself now. 

no pt readin anymore.

graduating cermony is approachin right? 
i hope you have found de perfect hairdo. shoes. clothes and all. 

if you haven, blame shujuan!!! 

u wanted to plan it 4 yrs ago, she said u are crazy, see wat happen now??? 

told u, that 4yrs passed by a blink la.

speakin of frens, wonder how ur close frens are doin la.

ky has graduated from psychology. 

faa from business and nitx is probably in de 3rd yr of uni!

jf is graduatin wif you. direct honors.

juan.beng are probably in uni le.maybe they are in de same school as you!! 

haha. i have no idea. huili is intendin to pursue a degree right?

celest is also studying?

 so many ppl are studyin la. haha. 

and i'm graduating. ((:

n-zire guys have all finished ns. 

wow. time REALLI flies.

and oo! i forgot to ask u, do u know ur way ard ntu already?

 i doubt so.

 and have you gt a drivin license liao??

 i seriousli hope u do. u are like 23yrs old le.

how's piano goin? smooth? 

and japanese language. u know more that simple phrases le?

well the letter's gettin draggy so i shall end here.

 realli hope u like uni life and create unforgettable memories. ((: [oh my that's so cliche]

ps: are u attached now?

pps: is the guy cute?

ppps: he better be both cute and rich!! ur dream is to becum a tai tai.

signing off,present 2008 yiqii

WOW.

I have only this emotion. I am smiling at and to myself. (if you can comphrend)

4 years have passed. or rather 3.5 years.

My usage of language is funny and anw, I'm here to answer you,



Dear past 2008 yiqii

I have graduated from NTU. Nope, I didn't banish everyone hopes and mugged on. 

The journey was tough like mad. 

I have broken down countless of times, cos i don't freaking understand.

 in fact, i can safely say, i still have no idea. 

And nope, i am not addicted to smoking or drugs, still obeys the law.

Just keep swearing more everyday. but thats okay right? 

2008 yiqii will approve. 

Its circumstances that made who i am today.

Its actually very bittersweet reading this letter as I am not as close to some of the friends now in 2011.

I am, to still a few, but i have made new friends, so it all evens out.

And yea, all of my friends went to study, but none came here

but its still okay,

cos i made other amazing people and they walked with me. <3

Yes, graduation ceremony is approaching but I'm going to the States first so it will be very rush

i doubt i will have time to prepare my hairdo and clothes

and i have a secret fear I'm going to be very fat

3 months = no joke

AND HAHAHAHA, I PASSED MY DRIVING

THANKYOUVERYMUCH

I do know my way around NTU, but if i deviate from the norm, i'm lost like a sheep.

piano& jap is all good. (:

and no, i'm not attached, i got out from a fucked-up r/s this year 

and i can safely say, after this heartbreak, and yet am still not broken,

I CAN CONQUER THE WORLD. 

All in all, these past 3.5 years have its ups and downs. 

Though the 'downs' outweighs the 'ups' by so much,

I'm thankful i made it through.
  

With loves,

                  2011 yiqii 

You have your mother's eyes

The ones that never left me.