it's killing me

I'm mad tired after weeks and weeks of work, 

so I want to relax.

especially in weekdays.

I'm honestly fine 

with slacking at your house (room) for the weekends, 

just hugging biscuit face and sniffing you.

 And then we will have all these long talks 

and nonsense exciting scenarios. 

(yes there's a script, too bad) 

I feel happy to be in your arms.

 I really do.

 And then when you kiss my forehead 

my life is complete. 

but that's for weekends.

 that's for days when nobody asked me out to play. 

when ppl eventually do. 

i wanna go out.

 I wanna meet them 

and I want you to meet them too.

I want to go to them and say

this is Harris!

so then they will go

"oh so this is the guy that yiqi has been ranting on"

"wa he so tall yiqi's pattern no change sia"

"what's up with his hairstyle???" 

(hey my friends are fashionstas, and no you are not)

but alas you don't like.

baby, you are like hermit crab

an introvert that stays at home everyday.

and are happy about it

you are the ideal husband

i'm dead serious.

committed to me

earns big money

filial to parents

love my siblings

stay at home = thrifty

if i'm 28 i will go down on one knee 

and ask for your hand

and skywrite 

"will you marry me?"

(since i'm using ur money already)
might as well
see what's the fuss
andddd...

instagram sure got alot of likes

but now, at age 23

i do not want to marry you

i do want to go out

not everyday mind you.

maybe once in 2 weeks times.

especially in the weekdays

and there's always conflict, you know

you hate going out

you hate spending money, especially mine (understandably)

so what am i supposed to do?

baby

will time fly?

so we wont stuck in this anguishing limbo.

i'm sorry

i dono how to curb my excitement

over all these

i'm a party girl

granted ive toned down quite a lot

but I'm still me

are you willing to accept that?

and you might be wondering

why such a long post?

all because i was scared to tell you

i wanna watch Hotel Transylvania later.

"I always try to make it up to you for whatever I can’t provide. I’ll try my best to do it always. Making a super conscious effort to remember your stuff; committing to memory your friends’ birthdays by repeating them in my head over and over, coming out to meet you whenever you request for me to even when I’m not free, going through your meal rituals in my head before food comes so that I can surprise you by actually ‘remembering’ them. All these just to see you smile. I want you to be happy with me. I want to repay you."

Do you know, reading this freaks me out, 

especially "I want to repay you"

why? why do you want to repay me?

I mean, i'm your gf. not your mum 

(sometimes i do feel like u love me like ur mum, but that's another issue to be dealt next time)

Don't leave me.

Let's be happy together till 2018 

where I ask you for your hand?

Cos Harris Lim, you are too gu niang already. 

I have to be the man.