2012.

That was my last tweet of 2011.

and admittedly, very bittersweet. 

Now, at 2012, I did it. As unbelievable as it sounds, I am top of the world again. Even higher than I have ever achieved. And, this time, I believe that even if I were to fall, I am in the safest hands possible.

Cliche as it sounds, I'm finally home. 

2012 was FUCKINGFANTASTIC.

I can't even start on the comparisons.

Compared to the girl that cried so much in 2011, the girl who swears at everything, the girl who thought she had lost it all. 

It's amazing how 2012 I lived through everyday. 

Smiling and laughing so happily, 

basking in the love that my family and friends are so willing to give me.

Here's the highlight of my 2012.

GRADUATE!

And another one with my chio straight hair and perfect tan. and also zc behind adjusting his robe.

And lastly, one with the epic jumping shot with the best-est friends one can graduate with.

Mathematical science honestly has given me lots to cry for.

 I've never mugged so hard for something that I'm not even remotely interested. 

This course is so thankless and I know if I don't have this group of friends.

 I will not make it. 

So, thank you. zhicheng, sijie, cheryl, tim, fab, kian seng. 

And Clara, next year is your turn. 

And to Dom, Yue En, Ray, we are finally together with you in this working society.

 Cheers to good stay-cation.

 Especially to you Yue En, without your claims, all would be impossible. 

Moral of the story: Stay on this company. 

UNITED STATES OF AMERICA

Went on a Work And Travel scheme.

 It is my last chance to do something so nonsensical,

 so ridiculous, and yet so adventurous.

 I really wanted a great adventure before I go out to the working world.

 So I signed up this trip on a whim.

 Paid the $100 deposit, and started paying more and more. 

And before I knew it, 

I am on a 16hr flight to NYC.  

First day of NYC, lost my camera.

 I'm normally not a careless person,

 I check and double-checked my belongings almost every minute. 

But, camera mysteriously disappeared. 

Anw, 破财消灾. 

Started out working as a ride operator, managing the lamest ride in the abandoned pier.

 Thank god Peiqi was with me and we went crazy at outlet stores on our off days. 

The Atlantic City

Bought way too many similar stuff. Having a good fashion taste has its downs. 

Oh, and I had the most awesome roomie, Livia 

who squeals at the exact same things. 

Sometimes it's a tad creepy. 

But whatever, Harry Potter (and tattoos) for life.   

and not forgetting our Taitai life at NYC. those were the days.

Later on, we became life guards and met the coolest people. 

Working everyday wearing flops, 

those were indeed the sex. 

But enough of the work, the travel part was too legendary. 

New Jersey, Washington, New York, Niagara Falls, Boston, Miami, Orlando and back to New York.

Visiting the happiest place on Earth. (THE WIZARDING WORLD OF HARRY POTTER)

and I caved in and bought the Gryffindor scarf.

"You might belong in Gryffindor,

Where dwell the brave at heart.

Their daring, nerve and chivalry

Set Gryffindors apart"

And you know what, I'm gonna let the pictures do all the talking.

Driving on the left side is infinitely challenging. (even for such a pro driver)

Meeting the Obamas (At NYC Madam Tussades) is always cool. 

Livia doing a very sultry secretary and a bimbo me picking up the phone.

And here's Washington.  The US Capital.

And doing fantastic jumpshots at the Miami beach 

just after few hours of watching epic 1 hour

 duration long fireworks during 4th of July. 

And how can we not go to one of 7 wonders of the world.

And the second happiest place on Earth. 

Our own version of U.S.A. (in front of Magic Kingdom, Toy Story)

My tan is too good to not be missed.

And my favorite Winnie with the lengendary clique I hang out with

And lastly going back to NYC with Livia and meeting Haymitch from Hunger Games.

And who can forget my Tiff and Co shot. The best till far.

#audreyhepburn

All these would not be possible without the clique I made in Morey's Piers

Wildwoods suck so bad but you guys made 

Mag House 2 Level 2 so fun.

HARRIS LIM

I guess the biggest reward going on on a whim to USA

 is probably you?

Or maybe not.

NYC was hard to beat. 

those 10 days living the life of a tai tai.

But, you came close.

All those late nights talking/skyping

and then you are finally back to my arms.

though admittedly shorter.

I cannot wait for your graduation

two more years

#letsgo

GENTING

Virgin trip to Genting

LOL

So much fun

the company was amazing

food was cheap

in fact it was FREE!

thanks to our Bao Zi 

where we won 1.5K (RM) each.

#beginnerluck

I know I was horrible to you guys in 2011

and I hope you understand why

nonetheless, thank you for being there

be it my graduation

or my birthday

where I was degraded to a siambu.

tsk tsk.

And with that,

I look forward to 2013. 

Where I believe it's gonna be even greater.

because I have you all.

PS: Was feeling rather blue yesterday, took a look at my 2012

decided that I'm worth much more.

And to you,

You shouldn't make me feel so lousy about myself

I don't think I did wrong to you. 

And I hope one day you can explain to me

I'm ready to understand.

train of thoughts

So I'm in NUS

writing my essays

while Harris is off for project meeting

I just smsed him I have lost my Internet connection

and his reply was

"eh ttyl k!"

Ouch much?

lucky by a stroke of inspiration

and my much-advanced skills in technology

I've tapped on to my hotspot

so now I can blog.

I'm terribly stoked about my shows

and I have dl-ed it all
2BG, HIMYM, MF, TBBT
I have missed you so.

dying to watch it now actually.

and speaking of Internet and downloads,

finally after so damn long

I've managed to upgrade to fibre broadband

praise the heavens and lords and whatnots

for fast internet speed

NUS Starbucks is pretty awesome actually

there's powerpoint everywhere

*cues in rainbow face*

so now armed with my caramel frappe

and my Macbook Air plus my iPhone

I CAN TAKE ON THE WORLD

#hipster

being here reminds me of my days of mugging at good old SAC

where the lovely 3 spent at least an hour swatting off houseflies

and then buying cheap coffee at vending machines

using the white board and trying to make sense

 of nonsense linear algebra

which i still cannot solve to save my life

those 4 years of my life were a torture

but honestly the friends i've gained make it worthwhile

 i might go back there again

so i can be friends with them

though might is the keyword here
and the chances are terribly slim.

i'm sorry
mathematical science is my arch-enemy.

it's not my fault.
it's who I am.

stuck in a science course

where only nerds and geeks come out to play
(i'm sorry, it's true, don't judge me, judge them instead)

how can i even have the same freq with them?

thankfully, i found a bunch

who understands my mean jokes

my evil intentions

my cynicism

and for that, my loyalty with you will always stand.

you guys know who you are

let's not get mushy by naming you all

or awkward if I've, erm left you out.

as ever, I believe in fate
more so than ever now

going to WAT was probably the best choice

I've made in my university life

I've travelled to the States

and visited the Wizarding World of Harry Potter

#favoriteplaceintheworldnow

it's worth it, to embark on this great adventure alone

because, only then, I will go all out

and what do you know,

I've made amazing friends
and even found someone

who make me realize

how goddamn lucky I am

because now,

I am yours 

and yours only

for the many many years to come.

Okay too mushy

that's a whole hell of 'train of thoughts'

but I needed to rant them out

and I'm getting worried with my job search

i'm hoping like mad

that Unilever accepts my essays

and perhaps I can get in the much-hyped UFLP

#fingerscrossed

I dont think I want to go back to AI

the company is too small

too constricted and frankly the turnover rate is alarming.

however, if all else fails

I hope AI will accept me

and that is/are my thoughts for now

and where is Harris Lim?

oh right, he doesn't want to talk to me

fine. 

you are so gonna suffer my wrath later.

Disney

A Whole New World

I can show you the world.
Shining, shimmering, splendid.
Tell me, Princess, now when did you last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes.
Take you wonder by wonder.
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming.

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear.
That now I'm in a whole new world with you.
Now I'm in a whole new world with you.

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feelings
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes)
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath, it gets better)

I'm  like a shooting star
I've come so far.
I cant go back to where I used to be.

(A whole new world)
Every turn a surprise.
(With new horizons to pursue)
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you.

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A trillion chase
A wondrous place
For you and me.

ごめんなさい
私は愛してる

random musings

It's been a month since I’m back. Time flies.

Have not had a proper rest since I came back actually

I mean, I went to Sakeinn the day after I landed. 

I swear, the next morning, bright and early, 

I’m back at here.

the only bright side,

I managed to steal the mayorship of Sakeinn at foursquare

from some nonsense si gina girl. 

take that si gina!

Just pathetic, I know.

in my defense, I need these small things to keep me going

So, it's been a month and I have basically done nothing. wtf

I'm either working or meeting my friends

3 months of disappearing in thin air

people will definitely miss you.

and of cause, my convocation

went back early so that I could wear the hat

hair so chio, tan so pretty, not fat at all

(refer back to 2008 yiqi, I fucking did it) 

with zhicheng

that guy saved my life in the last 3 years of university

it's even a standing joke btn the gang

"zc is the best thing that ever happened to you, steph" 

they would say that to me

while,

"Steph is the worst thing that ever happened to you, zc"

that would be directed to zc

super omgly touched by those two that came all the way to NTU just to see me grad

we have gone a long way

since a such a tender age of 16 years.

and hey presto,

I've graduated.

with the uni clique

dom and ye just super 有心

to take off to come see the four of us grad

it takes effort mind you

anyhow, this picture only missing Ray,

if not the gang is completed.

mandatory grad shot.

fml why did i looked up,

my face is now hidden

so to prevent readers/reader from missing my face

here's a chio photo of me with the Winnie decked in grad gown too

anyhow
other than convocation and meetups with the peeps
I am also mj-ing.

mahjong takes up much time too

It's my favorite hobby so understandably, I'm game to mj anytime, anywhere

reminiscing the days where I sneaked out at night

take mj table from Jerome's house

so as to mj at Sy house.

our window from 1am-5am.

simply bcos Justin can only come out after 1am and I need to be back home at 5am

wtf why we so hardcore.

anyhow, birthday celebrations for this year, so.much.better

though sucks to be 23.

and it doesn't help that Harris is only 22. fml

cannot wait for May 25th. 

Celebrated with uni gang at the much coveted hotel-MBS.

quite awesome actually

even though I've been here quite a few many times

the excitement of infinity pool still gets my heart beating

the night light of Singapore is still breath-o-taking

here are some pictures

so irritated with them, 

they placed 2 large and 5 candles and now im 25. fml*1000

and still add on the sign gestures

lucky my hair so chio here

I think it compensates 

still keeping up with the '25' sign,

and omfg about the Singapore skyline

how breathtaking can Singapore be

anyway the funniest story happened there.

was soaking in the Jacuzzi with sj and cheryl

this security guard came by and asked us to leave

reason being

"jacuzzi only for aged 16 and above"

so people who think I look old now

I can still pass off as a 16 year old girl. LOL

loving this candid shot of us.

cannot remember what we were talking

but I guessed I was mildly distracted

checking my hair and whatsapping Harris.

in my defense, I was too excited as he was coming home the next day

LDGA no joke.

anyhow

the best part of growing old,

is knowing they are here

and wont leave you.

(:

soooo after MBS,

comes 11th August

that boy finally finished his traveling

left MBS early and took the shuttle bus to Changi Airport

and finalfuckingly he walked out from the gate

quoting from him, 

"the air we were both meant to share"

wtf

Just not impressed, not touched, not feeling anything

I'm not that kind of girl hun. 

Cabbed back to his house

waited for him to bath

and what do you know

his mum came back and

I met his mum

omgomgomgomgomg

Just not even together

first day back, I've already seen my boyfriend's  friend's mum

anyhow still proud of myself

that I managed to leave a good impression

and got praised for being pretty. Yay!

#simplejoys

anyway, had our first SG date

AngKeong Hokkien Mee.

side note, why would people wanna dismiss, 

that was/is Heaven on a plate.

went back home

and cut birthday cake with my dad

was lazy to whatspp from Mei's phone so just took a snapshot with the phone

regretting it now

but anyway,

celebrated daddy's and my birthday at Jumbo Seafood

then celebration no3

with the nzire peeps and Justin at Soul

brought asked Harris along

reason being, we need a photographer.

and someone to share costs.

but joke's on me now. LOL

dont mind the wreath. 

those nonsense guys decided to make me a siam bu. FML

but before that, I was checked, had to produce driving license

(seriously, I still get a kick whenever I get the chance to show my license) 

apparently I look younger than 18 years old. 

made my night actually

anyway, these are the photos

I look absolutely stunning albeit the wreath. tyvm.

 

with Nigel

we looked so happy

yay 

with sy

he looked half drunk already

just wtf

was supposed to be my day, he just steal limelight

no comments

yay derrick!

its a trend to go clubs on my birthday. LOL

yay nick!

just so slim now.

wtf

and the gang

photo taken by Harris

see so blurred

referred to above

joke's on me

I know, I am too short

I get it everyday when I need to talk to everyone other than my family members

didn't got drunk, take that Nigel

I'm no longer the fucked up girl who got drunk at MBS hotel last Xmas.

left Soul around 3plus

and cabbed back home with Harris

seriously, the perks of living so fucking near.

we can share cabs

we can meet for brunch/dinner/supper

though the cons are, 

you cannot cheat, I mean, it will be awkward

if you happened to be holding hands with someone else

and he happens to be at downstairs. LOL

and and and on the 12th night

ate a simple bdae cake bread

so touched can.

why am i so easily pleased

but yay thanks for the minion and bread and candles and chocolates

you know I love you

despite what my actions say otherwise. my words meant it

HAHAHAHA

on the 13th, 

yay Harris got no school

went over again because no one was at home

I became smart okay

soon went over to Sakeinn,

yes, I go to Sakeinn even on my birthday

it's a norm

at least I do not need to work this year

last year, I was working mind you.

collected the cake.

aiyo so sweet.

#forever21

with @yiimin

best sister ever

and with Harris

just dono how to smile

spoiling this otherwise perfect photo

anyway we went back to his house to place the leftover cake

and yea, managed to see the mum and dad

so much for avoiding

but it was really hot and I wanted to stay in the house 

soon the sun wasn't that scorching and we went off
so excited
birthday celebration at Timbre
sadly the company could do better
'why am I stuck with him'
I fervently asked myself.

ordered duck pizza and buffalo wings
omg just Heaven on a plate once more
awesome awesome dinner
wtf thinking about it now makes me hungry

was supposed to watch Brave
but somehow we got to talking
and we became so emo after that. LOL
to be honest,
I kinda forgotten the conclusion of the talk

but I guess,
the overall message is
"We will last"?


anyhow it was a really nice celebration
so so so so so much better than last year


oh wait, nzire celebrated with me another time
nigel, shawn and sy baked me a tiramisu cake
just omg wtf why they so zai


in all,
this year birthday celebrations
so god damn better
much loved. <3>

OHAI GRADUATION

Yes, after 7 struggling semesters, I have completed my core, and before i touched on anything, here is a letter i wrote for myself in 2008, just before i started my torturous journey of a Mathematician student.

dear, future 2012 yiqii

how have you been?? Is uni life good for you? you are close to graduating already! ((:

at least i hope so. u have made it to this far right? 

u nv drop out halfway and banish everyone's expectatations of you right?

j
and jus to check, u are nt addicted to smokin or drugs ya? 

if you have, kill urself now. 

no pt readin anymore.

graduating cermony is approachin right? 
i hope you have found de perfect hairdo. shoes. clothes and all. 

if you haven, blame shujuan!!! 

u wanted to plan it 4 yrs ago, she said u are crazy, see wat happen now??? 

told u, that 4yrs passed by a blink la.

speakin of frens, wonder how ur close frens are doin la.

ky has graduated from psychology. 

faa from business and nitx is probably in de 3rd yr of uni!

jf is graduatin wif you. direct honors.

juan.beng are probably in uni le.maybe they are in de same school as you!! 

haha. i have no idea. huili is intendin to pursue a degree right?

celest is also studying?

 so many ppl are studyin la. haha. 

and i'm graduating. ((:

n-zire guys have all finished ns. 

wow. time REALLI flies.

and oo! i forgot to ask u, do u know ur way ard ntu already?

 i doubt so.

 and have you gt a drivin license liao??

 i seriousli hope u do. u are like 23yrs old le.

how's piano goin? smooth? 

and japanese language. u know more that simple phrases le?

well the letter's gettin draggy so i shall end here.

 realli hope u like uni life and create unforgettable memories. ((: [oh my that's so cliche]

ps: are u attached now?

pps: is the guy cute?

ppps: he better be both cute and rich!! ur dream is to becum a tai tai.

signing off,present 2008 yiqii

WOW.

I have only this emotion. I am smiling at and to myself. (if you can comphrend)

4 years have passed. or rather 3.5 years.

My usage of language is funny and anw, I'm here to answer you,



Dear past 2008 yiqii

I have graduated from NTU. Nope, I didn't banish everyone hopes and mugged on. 

The journey was tough like mad. 

I have broken down countless of times, cos i don't freaking understand.

 in fact, i can safely say, i still have no idea. 

And nope, i am not addicted to smoking or drugs, still obeys the law.

Just keep swearing more everyday. but thats okay right? 

2008 yiqii will approve. 

Its circumstances that made who i am today.

Its actually very bittersweet reading this letter as I am not as close to some of the friends now in 2011.

I am, to still a few, but i have made new friends, so it all evens out.

And yea, all of my friends went to study, but none came here

but its still okay,

cos i made other amazing people and they walked with me. <3

Yes, graduation ceremony is approaching but I'm going to the States first so it will be very rush

i doubt i will have time to prepare my hairdo and clothes

and i have a secret fear I'm going to be very fat

3 months = no joke

AND HAHAHAHA, I PASSED MY DRIVING

THANKYOUVERYMUCH

I do know my way around NTU, but if i deviate from the norm, i'm lost like a sheep.

piano& jap is all good. (:

and no, i'm not attached, i got out from a fucked-up r/s this year 

and i can safely say, after this heartbreak, and yet am still not broken,

I CAN CONQUER THE WORLD. 

All in all, these past 3.5 years have its ups and downs. 

Though the 'downs' outweighs the 'ups' by so much,

I'm thankful i made it through.
  

With loves,

                  2011 yiqii