#5

Okay,

So this is the last of the birthday greetings that you are getting from me.

I hope you liked what I have planned for you and even if you dont, at least LST ought to make you happy. HAHAHAHAHA.

I really hoped that you loved these 2d1n with me. We are so comfortable at times, that it is hard to make things so special. And that's precisely why I love our relationship.

As I mentioned in my heartfelt (?) video to you, relationship is supposed to be hard work. It is not supposed to be "a dreamy love affair; an airy fairytale wistfully conjured up out of thin air sputtering fairy dust and all things magical" They say quarrels is good, it's what triggers communication and I feel scared that the 9 mths that we have been together, there have been at most 2 or 3 quarrels? We don't quarrel like the rest of the couples, no screaming just sitting down quietly and voicing out our unhappiness. Okay fine, maybe you are only the one sitting down quietly. But you calm me down. You ground me in a way that I never thought it's possible. And that's precisely why I love our relationship.

So as I was telling all my friends, Harris & I are so... easy. It's so easy to hang out with you and be with you. It's almost effortless. Is that supposed to be the case? I don't know. Sometimes, this relationship scares me because I am always worried/afraid that there's a ticking time bomb underneath it all. And I get all upset and asked you to calm me down and then got scared that you will be tired. It's a vicious cycle (i know) with the ups and downs but your smiles are able to erase all my fears.  And that's precisely why I love our relationship.


There's no one else in the entire world that I would rather spend my lifetime with.

This is your first birthday with me and I hope this is the start of the many celebrations that we will be having together.


Happy Birthday Harris.

I love you more in a minute than anyone could in a lifetime.

Love is when you don on a Liverpool jersey and watched the whole match on a Saturday night.

Happy 8th. 

all too well

Sitting on your bed following up all these tiresome emails

you have no idea how happy I am now. 

because I can stare at you

while you listen to your webcasts.

and best part, there's no one to judge me. 

I may not show it often,

probably because I've learnt to be wary

I know you know I'm terrified

but you not pressuring me

is what makes me confident of us

i can't wait for our parallel universe baby.

but for now, 

in the harsh year of 2012

lets work hard

lastly,

happy early 3rd month

harris lim

Couple Activities

Because we meet everyday.

as we live so fucking near 

our couple activities are 

quoting what other people would say

"you guys are too free"

here are our 5 couple activities in the past 2 months

1. compete on FB see who gets the most likes

well, no prizes for guessing who won that.

I didn't as you claimed, 'tried to garner support or asked my friends to like it.'

the whatsapp message you chanced upon was merely me asking Clara to like something else. completely unrelated. Not everything is about you hunny.

2. Playing iPhone games like Chasing Yello, Subway Surfers and Temple Run-Brave & VPet

Yea, we do lame awkward stuff like these. Please don't judge us. We are bored.
ps: My VPet is so strong. you weakling.

3. Saw it on 9Gag, people used emoicons to play Connect 4, and we decided to give a try

I WON, btw.

 4. Twitter & Instagram 

Social Media plays a huge part in our couple activity because, I'm dating an addict.

Have even signed up for Pinterest. #ohgodnohelpme #helpus 

 5. Playing Gifboom

apparently the app was the in-thing in May but as we were in US, we were brutally ripped from the chances of showcasing our talents.

i think we make a cute couple, Harris Lim.
and to the rest of the people out there, please please don't judge us.

I swear, once I get a job, we will be doing adult things like going for drinks, watching musicals, nodding intelligently at world affairs, playing tennis and ...

oh who am I kidding, I think these activities are here to stay. #childatheart

You And I

I happened to chance this song

and I think you probably heard this before

considering this is quite a hipster song

but here it is.

when I heard this

I see you

and me

and most importantly us

loving the bunny reference too.

i'm honestly looking forward to us.

"Don’t you worry there my honey
We might not have any money
But we’ve got our love to pay the bills"

Autobiography

This girl.

Many people know her as Stephanie, and only a selected few are able to endearingly refer to her as Yi Qi. 

She easily passes off as a 21-year old, and sometimes even as a teenager. Her cheerfulness brightens up her surroundings easily, and her infectious playfulness hits everyone around her with a force much reckoned with. Her wide smile brings wider smiles to others’ faces, including mine.

Though petite, her boundless energy never seems to die down, and her playful fights are equivalent to that of a hamster; miniature and all. She gets all grumpy when cooped up at home doing boring stuff, but a simple kiss to her forehead is enough to get her to simmer down (for the time being).

Her klutziness at times can be adorable, while other times worrying. Her technologic illiteracy is on the other hand, always adorable, and the furrowing of her eyebrows are always a sight to watch. Immediate attention is required to her, otherwise her irritation will grow to become frustration and eventually anger, and that’s when it is no fun any more.

However, that being said, one kiss and one pat on her head is enough for her to drop all her negative feelings and thoughts, and melting down to this cute girl whom I have grown to love so much.

I love her and will do whatever it takes just to see a smile on her face. I pretend to lose so that she can win. I go along with all her silly games, though I draw the line at her nonsensical theories.

To the world, I’m Harris Lim. But to her, I’m her boy toy friend, who loves her a tad too much.

So, 

the boy wrote this autobiography ages ago, but because it's so sweet,

I need to present his love for me to everyone. #overtshowoff

If not, this blog seems like my one-sided love/passion and some may even say stalking him. Basically all my posts are about him. oh no.

I've got it bad.

I admit. 

Anw, this autobiography of mine is really cute. I love the highlighted sentence especially.

Harris Lim,

Me love you back too.

P.S: I hope you are studying! And not be addicted to all sorts of social media.

P.P.S: I miss you back. #inseparable #ohno

one month.

loads of talking

smelling

and smiling 

and falling asleep beside each other

that pretty sums up my 1st month

many more to come

Harris Lim

Loving the video

but seriously spoiling market.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ADyFCCrZEU&feature=player_embedded

and here's how we started, it is too cute for nuts

must share

#covertshowoff

Okay link cannot work

it consists of a recording of us posing for camera

and the photos came out like this

so chio

i love you

hunny

and i'm seriously embracing you calling me bunny

#whatiswrongwithme

#loveismakingmesoft

The Perfect Fit?

The Perfect Fit?

My angst versus your optimism
My competitiveness versus your chillax slacking attitude
My lack of compassion versus your high tolerance for everyone
My use of vulgar language versus your prim and proper, standard language


wait, I am churning out some horrible persona of mine.

lets do this again.

My sweet innocent smiles versus your ugly wicked frowns
My petite figure versus your gangly tall large-framed structure
My many friends versus your foreveralone image
My liking for giraffes versus your disturbing and creepy love for llama


And that's so much better
So, in a nutshell

I'm too awesome.

Count your blessings. Harris Lim.

愛してる

I love you

for all that you are

all that you have been

and all that you are yet to be.

Autobiography, in a third person narrative

Many people might know him as Harris Lim

the tall guy who studied at NUS,

forever late for lectures and tutorials.

he might seem as an introvert shy awkward guy

but once you get him talking,

the real problem is asking him to shut up

and believe me, I know best

Tall, dark and completed with bad boyish look,

my type of guy exactly

but underneath it all,

he is not the image he portrayed.

  

Yes, he has his bad boy moments

from lighting up cigarettes to clubbing and trying to get drunk.

(though apparently he has now quit smoking)

but underneath it all, he’s a stay home guy

satisfied with his weekends burn simply

watching soccer and mugging hard.

he is fascinated with the newest tech gadgets

and is what everyone considers now

a social media addict.

photography is his love

from owning his DSLR

to learning photoshop and lightroom

and trying not to judge, a Holga camera.

his OCD ensures his photos are all nicely edited

his folders are all in place

and his music needs to be classified under playlists

and completed with albums name, artwork and lyrics

however, that being said,

one look from me is enough

to make him drop whatever he is doing

rushed to my side.

and placed his full attention all onto me.

because,

he loves me and will do whatever it takes

just to see a smile on my face.

he pretends to lose

so that I can win.

he goes along with all my silly games

though he draws the line at

my nonsense theories

(which could totally be true, think out of the box!)

to the world

he’s Harris Lim

but to me

he’s my boytoy

the guy I love a tad too much.

Life's been more than fair.

Life's been more than fair lately.

Even though I am working almost everyday

and feeling stressed/pressured by the upcoming Sakeinn website

there's still a fucking ray of sunshine in my life

and it comes as form of a guy

standing at 1.8m

with the worst fashion taste ever

but a smile always for me

no matter where I am

(though granted, I'm only at Sakeinn)

he will come by with food

testing his luck with his choices

knowing full well that I will hate it

seeing him,

knowing how far we have gone to reach here now

my heart explodes with happiness everyday

knowing he's here to stay

that guy

that lifeguard

that friend

is now my boyfriend

love is intangible

and happiness is subjective

but right now

I know

this is love.

this is happiness

It's impossible to list the things I love about you

but here goes

I love that you intertwined your fingers with mine the instant we met

I love how you gave me the face when I let go of your hand

I love how you then grabbed it tightly

I love how you say 'No' to my shoos and go-aways

I love how you will stroke my head

I love how you smell my hair

I love how you call me Hun

I love how you go aiyo over the simplest things

I love how you bring in your mum and sis in our conversations

I love how you dismiss me when I bring in insignificant others in our relationship

I love how you smile at me the instant you saw me

I love how you bugged me in reciprocating my love back

I love how when I do, your face lights up

I love how you concede defeat so that I can win

I love how you treat me like a Queen

I love how you love my friends

I love how you change your url the instant you became this happy

so much for thinking it's impossible to list.

you consume all my thoughts,

and I thank my lucky stars everyday

 to be able to meet you.

know you

like you

and finally fall madly in love with you.

Harris Lim

I love you.

random musings

It's been a month since I’m back. Time flies.

Have not had a proper rest since I came back actually

I mean, I went to Sakeinn the day after I landed. 

I swear, the next morning, bright and early, 

I’m back at here.

the only bright side,

I managed to steal the mayorship of Sakeinn at foursquare

from some nonsense si gina girl. 

take that si gina!

Just pathetic, I know.

in my defense, I need these small things to keep me going

So, it's been a month and I have basically done nothing. wtf

I'm either working or meeting my friends

3 months of disappearing in thin air

people will definitely miss you.

and of cause, my convocation

went back early so that I could wear the hat

hair so chio, tan so pretty, not fat at all

(refer back to 2008 yiqi, I fucking did it) 

with zhicheng

that guy saved my life in the last 3 years of university

it's even a standing joke btn the gang

"zc is the best thing that ever happened to you, steph" 

they would say that to me

while,

"Steph is the worst thing that ever happened to you, zc"

that would be directed to zc

super omgly touched by those two that came all the way to NTU just to see me grad

we have gone a long way

since a such a tender age of 16 years.

and hey presto,

I've graduated.

with the uni clique

dom and ye just super 有心

to take off to come see the four of us grad

it takes effort mind you

anyhow, this picture only missing Ray,

if not the gang is completed.

mandatory grad shot.

fml why did i looked up,

my face is now hidden

so to prevent readers/reader from missing my face

here's a chio photo of me with the Winnie decked in grad gown too

anyhow
other than convocation and meetups with the peeps
I am also mj-ing.

mahjong takes up much time too

It's my favorite hobby so understandably, I'm game to mj anytime, anywhere

reminiscing the days where I sneaked out at night

take mj table from Jerome's house

so as to mj at Sy house.

our window from 1am-5am.

simply bcos Justin can only come out after 1am and I need to be back home at 5am

wtf why we so hardcore.

anyhow, birthday celebrations for this year, so.much.better

though sucks to be 23.

and it doesn't help that Harris is only 22. fml

cannot wait for May 25th. 

Celebrated with uni gang at the much coveted hotel-MBS.

quite awesome actually

even though I've been here quite a few many times

the excitement of infinity pool still gets my heart beating

the night light of Singapore is still breath-o-taking

here are some pictures

so irritated with them, 

they placed 2 large and 5 candles and now im 25. fml*1000

and still add on the sign gestures

lucky my hair so chio here

I think it compensates 

still keeping up with the '25' sign,

and omfg about the Singapore skyline

how breathtaking can Singapore be

anyway the funniest story happened there.

was soaking in the Jacuzzi with sj and cheryl

this security guard came by and asked us to leave

reason being

"jacuzzi only for aged 16 and above"

so people who think I look old now

I can still pass off as a 16 year old girl. LOL

loving this candid shot of us.

cannot remember what we were talking

but I guessed I was mildly distracted

checking my hair and whatsapping Harris.

in my defense, I was too excited as he was coming home the next day

LDGA no joke.

anyhow

the best part of growing old,

is knowing they are here

and wont leave you.

(:

soooo after MBS,

comes 11th August

that boy finally finished his traveling

left MBS early and took the shuttle bus to Changi Airport

and finalfuckingly he walked out from the gate

quoting from him, 

"the air we were both meant to share"

wtf

Just not impressed, not touched, not feeling anything

I'm not that kind of girl hun. 

Cabbed back to his house

waited for him to bath

and what do you know

his mum came back and

I met his mum

omgomgomgomgomg

Just not even together

first day back, I've already seen my boyfriend's  friend's mum

anyhow still proud of myself

that I managed to leave a good impression

and got praised for being pretty. Yay!

#simplejoys

anyway, had our first SG date

AngKeong Hokkien Mee.

side note, why would people wanna dismiss, 

that was/is Heaven on a plate.

went back home

and cut birthday cake with my dad

was lazy to whatspp from Mei's phone so just took a snapshot with the phone

regretting it now

but anyway,

celebrated daddy's and my birthday at Jumbo Seafood

then celebration no3

with the nzire peeps and Justin at Soul

brought asked Harris along

reason being, we need a photographer.

and someone to share costs.

but joke's on me now. LOL

dont mind the wreath. 

those nonsense guys decided to make me a siam bu. FML

but before that, I was checked, had to produce driving license

(seriously, I still get a kick whenever I get the chance to show my license) 

apparently I look younger than 18 years old. 

made my night actually

anyway, these are the photos

I look absolutely stunning albeit the wreath. tyvm.

 

with Nigel

we looked so happy

yay 

with sy

he looked half drunk already

just wtf

was supposed to be my day, he just steal limelight

no comments

yay derrick!

its a trend to go clubs on my birthday. LOL

yay nick!

just so slim now.

wtf

and the gang

photo taken by Harris

see so blurred

referred to above

joke's on me

I know, I am too short

I get it everyday when I need to talk to everyone other than my family members

didn't got drunk, take that Nigel

I'm no longer the fucked up girl who got drunk at MBS hotel last Xmas.

left Soul around 3plus

and cabbed back home with Harris

seriously, the perks of living so fucking near.

we can share cabs

we can meet for brunch/dinner/supper

though the cons are, 

you cannot cheat, I mean, it will be awkward

if you happened to be holding hands with someone else

and he happens to be at downstairs. LOL

and and and on the 12th night

ate a simple bdae cake bread

so touched can.

why am i so easily pleased

but yay thanks for the minion and bread and candles and chocolates

you know I love you

despite what my actions say otherwise. my words meant it

HAHAHAHA

on the 13th, 

yay Harris got no school

went over again because no one was at home

I became smart okay

soon went over to Sakeinn,

yes, I go to Sakeinn even on my birthday

it's a norm

at least I do not need to work this year

last year, I was working mind you.

collected the cake.

aiyo so sweet.

#forever21

with @yiimin

best sister ever

and with Harris

just dono how to smile

spoiling this otherwise perfect photo

anyway we went back to his house to place the leftover cake

and yea, managed to see the mum and dad

so much for avoiding

but it was really hot and I wanted to stay in the house 

soon the sun wasn't that scorching and we went off
so excited
birthday celebration at Timbre
sadly the company could do better
'why am I stuck with him'
I fervently asked myself.

ordered duck pizza and buffalo wings
omg just Heaven on a plate once more
awesome awesome dinner
wtf thinking about it now makes me hungry

was supposed to watch Brave
but somehow we got to talking
and we became so emo after that. LOL
to be honest,
I kinda forgotten the conclusion of the talk

but I guess,
the overall message is
"We will last"?


anyhow it was a really nice celebration
so so so so so much better than last year


oh wait, nzire celebrated with me another time
nigel, shawn and sy baked me a tiramisu cake
just omg wtf why they so zai


in all,
this year birthday celebrations
so god damn better
much loved. <3>

those 27days

"I read once that love is friendship on fire. That's how I feel about you." 

-The Perfect Man (2005) -

It has been 13 days since you are back, and these 13 days have been

goddamnomgamazing

I guess, the start of the relationship is always perfect.

the honeymoon period

the getting to know each other

the cantgetenough of each other

the cantkeepmyhands off each other

and of course, the introduction of one's family and friends.

(which I totally aced btw)

but before these happiness crowds my mind,

here's some feelings that needs to be jotted down.

to look back and smile and cringe and be mortified

by my style of writing

and not forgetting my actions.

and here they are,

I'm glad we survived the 27 days

it was hard, mind you

I had proof of how fucked up it was too.

That was on 21st July, 

filled with hope that I could survive our LDGA

why was I so naive that time.

then,

I came back, 28th July

and waiting became so excruciating.

tried to walk away, futile attempt.

afterwards,

instead of getting used that you are not by my side,

I got even more dependent.

wtf is wrong with me.

and I got really really scared.

not forgetting my friends were there to present the other side

the cons of entering this relationship

were frankly enough to deter me away

but somehow, i guess I liked you too much to stay away

and you were doing whatever you could

to prove that you really liked me and wanted to be tog with me

so much to the extent of asking me on whatsapp to be together

#wtf #seriouslywtfwereyouthinking

and then finally, you left the States

"Time is making fools of us again"

Professor Albus Dumbledore, HBP

He couldn't have put it in better words.

 Time CRAWLED.

 and you actually resorted to doing up a countdown

on 

http://www.timeanddate.com

I swear, it was my favorite website for those 5days

seeing the seconds, minutes, hours and days ticking by

it was intoxicating

and I guess, 

that was when I knew you aren't a fling.

"I think I like love you"

The voice in my head

and now,

I count my blessings everyday

that i flew 80,000miles

embark on this great USA adventure

and met you.

because Harris Lim, you make me happy

you really do.

and I hope I do too.

xoxo

love,

yiqi